Overcoming Betrayal 04.21.2017
In the last year, it seems like I have had some very hurtful betrayals enter my life. From the heartache flamed up an intense anger and resentment. This is not a Bible commentary on the betrayals that Jesus endured, but a simple sharing of some wisdom what a mentor shared unto me. These are his words;
“This note is not directed at you but is you overhearing something He is guiding me in if you like to read on.
The Elijah prime, he was to prepare the way of God coming to the Hebrews: particularly in the destroying of the “prophets” of Baal.
Elijah #second coming: John the Baptist preaching repentance as the way to make way for Jesus’ entrance into our experience.
The Puritan experience: praying for the gift of repentance which is different than feeling sorry for our mess-ups.
Perhaps the reason God seems so far away it is that I am instead far away.
Removed by fouled thinking,
Giving attention and undue significance to some idea more than hearing God’s protective revelation for today’s challenges,
Judging God inadvertently, sort of resenting His lack of response to my pains,
Giving up, using my default responses to various situations,
Just not seeing my ever present depravity because I like to feel that I am still pretty much O.K.
Still doing good, even at His direction (I think)
So my prayer is that the two boys who steal money from me at the store every week: “The Lord judge you” instead of “ Just wait until I catch you and haul your sorry little assess down to the cops” “I forgive you, Lord forgive me, too” instead of Gritting my teeth and feeling the fire within”. (Walt Johnson)
“And they said unto them, The LORD look upon you, and judge; because ye have made our savour to be abhorred in the eyes of Pharaoh, and in the eyes of his servants, to put a sword in their hand to slay us. And Moses returned unto the LORD, and said, Lord, wherefore hast thou so evil entreated this people? why is it that thou hast sent me? For since I came to Pharaoh to speak in thy name, he hath done evil to this people; neither hast thou delivered thy people at all”. (Exodus 5:21-23 KJV)
I now realize I was leveling the same charges against God that Moses had used. “Why are you not doing something to right all these wrongs and evils?”. But like Moses, I had forgotten I was the one who had committed murder in my heart. My dear brother reminded me that the proper response is always “the Lord judge you”.